God is at work all the time. We don't always see it and we often
don't understand it. Sometimes things become clear, but often times we just
have to accept that we don't know. Sometimes God leads us and although we don't
know why, we know He is calling. All last year attending BSF in Burnaby as a
member, I felt God calling me back to Ebenezer in Vancouver. I didn’t
understand why, but I had a strong feeling that I should switch back to the
Ebenezer class on Tuesdays and that I should return to leadership as well. I
was hesitant because I really loved Susan as lecturer and I had made some great
friends at the Burnaby class. Still, I felt like I needed to go back. At the
end of BSF in May, we unexpectedly found out that Susan was being transferred
to Vancouver and I felt like it was a sign from God that I should switch back.
So, I asked to transfer back to Ebenezer.
I was fairly confident that I would get a phone call asking me to
rejoin leadership. I had already felt God calling me and had already decided to
say yes. But meanwhile, I had a problem. The job partner I was sharing with was
wanting me to work on Mondays. Since she was in charge, I did not have any
choice in what day I would be working. I was surprised and disappointed. I had
thought God was calling me to leadership; I could feel it and yet it was now
impossible. Maybe I wasn't called after all? I could just be a member. After
discussion with the school board, I found out that Mondays were actually not
allowed and I was in fact only allowed to work on Fridays. So, my work day
became Friday and I felt like God was clearing a way for me to be in leadership
after all.
So, I waited and after a few weeks, I got a call from Susan asking
me to become a group leader. She asked me to pray about it, but when she called
me back she had changed the question. She asked if I could be admin leader instead.
She asked me to pray and she'd call me again after a few days. I hesitated. I
was not familiar with what was involved in admin and I felt very uncomfortable.
But as I thought and prayed about it, I clearly felt that I should say yes,
trust God and serve wherever Susan asked me to. So, I said yes.
I believe God led me to Vancouver and to admin leadership and I
think he may have multiple reasons for doing so. First, He is obviously calling me out
of my comfort zone. I was very comfortable agreeing to be a group leader. I had
no qualms about leading a group, but He called me to do hard, unfamiliar things
and to trust Him instead. To stop relying on myself.
The other reason He called me to admin is Serene. I feel like
Serene and I were meant to be friends. I am not sure exactly why, but I feel
strongly that we need each other and God's timing is perfect. This is possibly
the only year that this friendship is even possible. The North Shore site is a
satellite this year, but may not be next year and definitely wasn't last year.
With 68 leaders, there is no way I would have gotten to know Serene in any
other way than through the smaller group within the admin team. I am not good
with getting to know people and I already know quite a few of the leaders from
before, so the last person I would expect to get to know would be someone from
the North Shore. And yet, God. From the very first time I met Serene I felt a
strong connection to her. This is very unusual since I am generally very slow
to connect to new people. I usually have a very big personal space bubble and
like to keep people at a distance. I am not very trusting or open. But, I trusted Serene from day one. She is hilarious and makes me laugh. She is sarcastic, doesn't follow rules and
is an introvert. Good
or bad, I am 100% myself around Serene and I feel like she “gets me”. Could she
be any more perfect?
So, from start to finish with transferring classes and having Mondays
and Tuesdays off and being unexpectedly called to admin, God is at work
and I am grateful. But if I've learned my lesson, can I go back to being a
group leader now, lol?!
